Life in songs

Travelling through time... trying to find places/things/people who mirror the essence of me. Found none. Thought of creating it (people too)... couldn’t! I am like the poet who is bad with words. I can feel poems run through me, but can’t pen it down. It’s the highest level of frustration, believe me. It’s like having Office 2007 but having to work with a 98 processor... what a life! Amazing... you know why? Because that passion comes out in ways one can never imagine. It shows through my restlessness, peeps through my silence, blinks through my eyes and whispers through my indifference. One of the best ways I feel I can express myself is through songs.

Songs. They are so amazing. I hear a good lyric and it hits me in my stomach, why can't I write something. I have better ideas than that. When I see someone playing the guitar, I WANT to be able to play it. I know I might be able to create melodies. It’s not as if I haven’t tried. I have, a lot (atleast the poems part. Guitar not really, as I don’t have one, but soon I will).

I can attribute a song to different phases of my life (phases in chronological order).

When I was in school – Overprotected
When I was a teenager – Somewhere I belong
When I fell in love for the first time – Love at first sight
When I had my affair – Kiss from a rose
When I realised what love is – Until
When I lost my love – Empty
When I lost myself – Six feet from the edge
When I got a glimpse of the dark side – Zombie
When I found love and let it go – I’m leaving on a jet plane
When I found myself – I’m no angel

I know I am not perfect, but I can smile
And I hope that you see this heart behind my tired eyes
If you tell me that I can't, I will, I will, try all night
And if I say I am coming home, I’ll probably be out all night
I know I can be afraid but I am alive
And I hope that you can trust this heart behind my tired eyes


And life goes on... for every phase to come I will find a song. If for once I don’t, I will make my own. But will have a song no matter what...

P.S. This post was written earlier and within a few days I got a guitar as a birthday gift from my friends and am rite now on seventh heaven. Anyways this is one of the most meaningful gifts I have ever got...